Surprise!

It's hard to believe how quickly your life can change. Everything is completely normal one minute, and within hours its all different. God lately has been softening the blow, but somethings still get under your skin. I'm not about to say I'm not happy, because If I've learned anything in my life its that God does things for a reason. God has broken my heart plenty in the past few years. God has dealt me cards that don't make any sense, and usually i'm not even playing cards to begin with. I had a tiny idea that today was going to happen, but I can't describe how i feel because i don't really know that. If I could change the result, would I? In a heartbeat. The circumstances do change what my next step will be, I feel like i didn't know what I was dealing with, and now that I know i begin to wonder. So whether to go left or go right I don't know. I just kinda want to sit for a while, and enjoy what I have. God gives and God takes away. I thank him so much for giving me what I had, but in life all things are taken away in time. So I just have to condition my heart to whatever is next. Please pray for me.