Bearing my soul

I feel really weird about blogging my heart out. But I can't imagine that anyone is reading anyway, and it does make me feel a lot better. I am currently just trying to do the right thing. I am trying to take a different perspective than I've had the past couple similar experiences. I think I had a tendency to drive myself into temporary depression, which wasn't very constructive. This time around, I'm just trying to focus on what is important. I'm trying to read through the lines, and trying to gain any feeling of hope for what is to come. I'm not routing for any specific outcome as far as what my future holds. I'm just trying to go at it from my heart, and keep the mindset that I will overcome this, and in a few months i will laugh about this. Experience is getting me by. I was at a doctor's house tonight and I had to try my hardest to keep myself from asking him to prescribe me some sleep medication so i can...oh, i don't know...sleep from now until may. But today was a good day. My morale is good, and I am legitimately trying to stay above the circumstance and find ways to praise God through them. I'm just at a loss and I have no idea why this is happening. But I know there are people out there that do. All I know is that I did nothing wrong and God is going to bless me for seeking him. Gosh, I really don't want to come across as emotional. I'm not an emotional guy and I am not emotional right now. I just lost something I love, and took for granted, and blogging is a breath of fresh air. Goodnight!