Top of the Mornin'

Today has been pretty awesome. I woke up, and immediately weighed myself. My goal over the past few weeks was to lose my little belly. I grew fond of it, but I wanted to watch him go. And today, he is officially gone. Unfortunately I had to lose 9 pounds over the course of 11 days to achieve this and the past few days have sped up the process a little. I was pretty excited. But then it kind of dawned on me that the person I tell everything to, I can't talk to. I think that is the hardest part of all of this. I have so much I want to say, but I don't know who to say it too. Good things have been happening but, I just keep it inside, and wish I could talk to someone. I think thats why I'm blogging so much. Because I'm saying it to you, just to get it out. I seriously don't think there is anyone who cares enough to keep tabs on what is going on with me right now, but just the thought that if someone wants to know what's on my mind and what I'm going through, it's here. I have to tell someone. I picked a bad time to be living in Florida with nothing to do...I want nothing more than to feel normal. I'm still committed to the idea of moving back to Jersey in the fall, and hopefully between then and now i can achieve a sense of normalcy. This sucks so much.