What a week!

So this past week was not even close to what i expected. I decided to forget that i had a job that unnecessarily consumed my life, and work with a team from Virginia as they did adventure camps around New Brunswick. I miss doing this kind of stuff full time. But i definitely realized i needed to get away from my job and find something that would allow me more time to do stuff like this. And then on wednesday i ended up losing my job. I can't say i was upset. That night was one of the best nights ive had in a while. I was happy, I hung out with Michele all night, and i got to spend time with all the people ive neglected over the past few months. The next couple days i did a bunch of different things. Friday i went to New York all day and decided to buy tickets to see the Devil Rays play the Yankees in the Bronx. I have been loving my time off. I've been much happier and a lot less stressed out. It made me realize that this is definitely what God wanted to happen. I miss everyone i worked with, but i am excited about whats to come. Yeah, i got a little uncertainty, but im not in the least bit worried. I planned a last minute trip to California, that i will be leaving for on Wednesday. I cant wait to get away for a few days and see my parents and my family out there. So hopefully when i get back i will have a job lined up and i can move forward. But I am definitely refreshed and excited about the next chapter in my life. Whatever that may be.

Got Baseball??

The last few weeks have been pretty good weeks. My brother was up here in Jersey a week and a half ago. Usually when he comes up or we spend any amount of time hanging out we go to baseball games, go play baseball, or just sit around playing x-box baseball or talking about baseball. Its a good time. When he was up here we went to see the Mets play the Marlins at shea stadium. I have never seen a pitcher hit a homerun and i happened to see Dontrelle Willis hit a grand slam...so that was pretty neat. Two days later we drove down to philly to see a HIIIGHLY anticipated game between the phillies and the pirates. The only people who really care about that game is old people who have lived in either pittsburgh or philly for a hundred years. in other words both teams are terrible. but it was a pretty good game. and when have i not enjoyed a game? the next week was the all-star game so that kept me busy watching the homerun derby and stuff and then i decided to buy the MLB.TV package on mlb.com, so now i get every game all the time. It sucks because i work everynight and cant ever watch the games live. but i can watch them the next day. so thats exciting. right now as i write this i am switching between 5 games that are playing live. This will keep me busy until october. Which then it will be football season and the cycle will start again.

dont believe what you think you see

why does everything have to be so hard? i know what will make me happy, but i cant seem to get there. and when i take steps in the right direction, something goes wrong. i dont know. thats been the story of the year. truth is...im still not happy. im trying to figure out what it will take to make me happy, but you start to learn things. what i thought would make me happy 6 months ago, wasn't all that i thought it was. i guess being on the outside looking in you can start to see what it really is. its what happened when i moved back to florida, and its the reason i came back here. a different perspective. so now i offically have one reason to stay here. haha, its not my job. i would leave that in a heartbeat. theres nothing more that drains me and burns me out, and wastes my talents and dreams like my current job. and i can go to school anywhere, so thats not it. i think you know what it is. but something happened saturday night, that discouraged me a whole lot. i just finished watching a movie about this very thing, and then all the sudden i find myself sitting waste deep the mud, that used to be water clear as day. embarrassed. i dont know what im gonna have to do, but its all im here for. so im gonna keep trying. my luck cant really get worse.

How New Jersey are you?

You Are 38% New Jersey!

You've got a little Jersey in you. Not too bad, however you could have done a lot better. Based on this score, you may not actually be from New Jersey. You're missing out!

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